Sometimes I get angry because I want fandom to be as fun and healing and affirmative as it is for most people. But when characters that look like me are constantly erased, disrespected and mis-characterized… it’s really hard.
Then you have to worry about the people in charge of canon. Are they going to fuck me over? Are they going to ruin my character or shove her to the wayside? It’s tiring. It’s demoralizing.
Fuck, can’t I ever escape?